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I don’t believe in destiny but you won’t always get everything you want. There will always be that one thing that you won’t be able to get. But you should never give up if that one thing won’t be there, ‘cause there are so many things waiting for you that you weren’t able to see before because you were busy trying to get that something even if it actually shows you that it should never be really there.

All those years, I waited for something, or I mean someone, that I already want to be with for the rest of my life. I was able to find that person but in the end, he didn’t choose me. I wanted something serious but he wasn’t ready…

This is the time where I want to have a serious relationship but maybe you can only achieve that by a long-time courtship which I don’t believe in.. No! If LOVE is really there, you can start anytime and it will last a lifetime, no matter how hard it might be, ‘cause when you’re together, you feel so strong and no matter how hard you push that person away he’ll still come back and will never get tired showing his love for you..

I just want someone that will start to live, I mean really LIVE, with me and together we’ll enjoy everything we wanted to.. because this is the time where I’m all alone on everything.. I need someone who will never get tired on taking care of me.. and will just simply make me happy and make me forget that all the people I love left me & just don’t mind what I’m feeling.. - - - - - ♥ What if someone who is courting me for almost five years comes back again? What if someone will come and we both want to have a serious relationship now? What if I saw the effort and really feel being loved? WHAT IF someone who really loves me come and propose to me now?

WILL I still choose the one I love or the one who loves me?

Will I still choose someone who always rejects me or someone that will really take care of me now that I am alone?

Will I choose to wait for something that is not sure or choose what I’ve been wanting to happen now?

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“…Forgive once. Tapos. Kapag nagkamali ulit, enough na! Sympathy cannot be inspired by any sweet nothings nor promises. Like the old sayings, kung ang Diyos nga marunong magpatawad, ang tao pa kaya? Alam mo sagot diyan, ang Diyos ba nasasaktan? Powerful na siya e, he knows how to heal pain. Pero tao tayo, prone masaktan, at lumaban. OK sige, Forgiveness is God’s greatest gift daw according sa The Da Vinci Code na libro. Forgive once. Pero kapag inulit, gaguhan na? haha Tao ka at ‘di ka nabuhay para magpatawad. Ang madre ba kapag ginahasa magpapatawad rin? haha Ewan ko lang :) Being practical is the key for survival. You must always know na dati, nasaktan ka. And if you keep accepting them in your life again, mas lalo malaki ang chances na masaktan ka ulit, at manghina lalo. By that time, defeatable ka kasi they have defeated you once e, ‘di na mahirap ang pangalawa. Please, MANOOD KA NG KILL BILL. Hahaha. To be strong is to keep in mind that someone and you have unfinished busines!…”

-http://rpg087.tumblr.com/

Natamaan ako dito, but he’s totally right.. I think I’m more DEFENSIVE against pain rather than being IMMUNE to it. I let someone defeat me over and over again but now, I can soon learn how to forgive or simply, forgetting because I deserve more and I won’t stick to something that is lesser than what God has promised to me. :) ♥

I don’t know if it’s true for all of us, the saying, “true love waits..”.

But for me, it is. Love doesn’t think about the consequences but on how will they get to reach the success on having their most precious time with the person they love the most. 

In a REAL relationship, the feeling of the other person is more important. If you think that this is the time to move on for the mistakes you’ve done and the other is telling that it’s not, don’t force each other. You are both in a relationship that should take care of each other and not for telling and forcing each other to understand what is needed to, all you need to understand is the feeling of the other person and not to let anybody be hurt. And if you love someone you’ll do anything just to make him/her happy, right? :) If both of you love each other, no one will be unfair. :)

But what if you really love the person and you finally found out that he doesn’t love you and you know that there are people waiting for you and are willing to give you everything and they already started doing it a long time ago? WHO WOULD YOU CHOOSE? Someone asked me this question before and it was really easy for me to answer that I will choose the person who loves me but now that I’m really experiencing it, it’s really hard and at the same time it hurts a lot! ~ But you know what?.. I chose the person I love ‘cause I won’t be able to take the pain seeing him happy with another woman. I JUST TOLD MYSELF that at the end he’ll be the one who will keep on longing for my love OR when I’m gone he’ll realize that no other woman is better to love him just like I did and upon searching for another woman, he’ll also realize how great I am. He might also know that there are lots of guys out there that my family and friends are telling me that they are a lot more better than him but still I chose him.

But still, I can’t blame him if he doesn’t really love me. I’m just happy that I can only live once and I felt God’s love and I was able to let someone feel it too. The only problem is that WHY MOST OF US still need to experience the same mistakes others did before really learning from it. 

True love waits, listens, and gives everything he/she could just to make that ONE person HAPPY, you might suffer and sacrifice big things BUT if he/she loves you back, he/she will also do the same thing just to make you happy. And of course, we should never forget God to be the center of our relationship. ♥~

Being taken for granted and letting go, both are one of the hard part of our lives especially when there is love. But it’ll be harder and more painful if your only choice in your relationship with someone you really love is “the pain of being taken for granted” or “the pain of letting go”.

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Me.. I just chose to be taken for granted. I always choose to stay even though I’ve been fooled over and over again, even though lots of important things are forgotten, even though all the things I say seem so worthless, even though I’m dying doing and telling him things that would be great for both of us but he just shows how more important other things are, even though sometimes I’m rejected, even though sometimes he doesn’t seem to notice me… Almost everything can be a reason for me to leave that guy but my love for him keeps on giving me the courage to stay and keeps on showing me that the effect of letting him go would be worse where I might not live anymore.

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I don’t want him to be perfect, just like I always say to him. I just want him to STOP SAYING things and START DOING them. All I want is the TRUTH.

If he really loves me, he would think that it would be better for me to know and be disappointed than to never know and make me wonder, always.

If he doesn’t then it would be better for me to just leave, it is not what I deserve and I don’t want to commit again those mistakes I had before, wrong choices. And even though if I leave him, I know in my mind and heart that he would still be the only person I’ll love eternally.

Life might not always give what we want.

It will all just happen in the beginning, we should only need to learn how to act upon it, work hard for it, fight for it, and it will come to you.

Life has no shortcuts. We’ll all suffer and will all need to risk something big in return for something bigger that we won’t able to think of if we don’t know how to LOVE ‘cause it’s the only thing that would teach us to sacrifice and to be able to open our eyes in the brighter side of life.

Positive thoughts will lead us to positive outcomes. Law of attraction is true but it should be accompanied by EFFORT and PERSEVERANCE but.. of course, these will automatically come out of our personality if we really LOVE those goals we have in life. NEVER BE AFRAID! As long as GOD is there in your heart, He will never let you down! NEVER! ;) ~♥

Some people don’t give importance to big things they have right now because they don’t actually realize how important those things are until they’re gone.. I know this is already common to all of us but why is it that most of the people still choose to get used to it?

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I love someone so much but he doesn’t care about me that much and that makes me feel confused on what he really feels about me (does he really love me or not..), I am not that important for him.. I don’t even feel like his girlfriend.. but still wanting to keep our relationship because I really love him so much, and my love for him is very true.. 

I just really want us to be really open for each other and I don’t want to be strict for him anymore because of him, lying too much.. I want us to be best friends forever and we are more than that.. Lying to me will forever be unacceptable but still I do accept his apologies. But now, I am tired of just always accepting his SORRYs again and again about same things.. :| I do deserve something better than a LIAR and I shouldn’t be treated like that..

After our fight together, everything went great, I really hope that those things he said are now true, and I hope that now, everything in our relationship will always be true and will always be with God for it to last forever ♥

I can promise to him that whatever it is that he will say to me, I will always be there to listen.. I will always be there for him and will help him get through good times or bad.

And he’s the most important thing to me now and I don’t want to lose him.. but still, I should depend on God’s decision for me.. and I really hope that none of His decisions is to take him away from me.

♥♥♥ :)

Sounds like the tv series.. yea it is but the story is different..

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Someone suddenly captured my heart. He then told me that he loves me too.. but now, it was all wrong. I know that when loving someone I shouldn’t tell him what to do and he must do it immediately. But there are certain things that won’t happen or there are certain things that our heart will let us do if we are both really in love with each other. Things that won’t let us feel uncomfortable or hurt, Things that would make our life happier together ‘cause all our hearts let us do things that would only please each other that will let our relationship grow and would really make us feel ONE.

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I’m thinking now that I accidentally met this guy for him to be a better person for the one he will truly love. And that he just came for me to feel real love. It really hurts that someone I love doesn’t love me back in return but I have to be strong and I won’t forget him, ‘cause I know till the end of time he’s the only person I will love and will forever be my inspiration. I would rather choose to be thankful that it happened and I didn’t do something I will regret, I didn’t betray him or hurt him or what. I just love him and I’m happy that he became part of my life ♥ :)

God is the only one we should follow on everything. He’s the perfect example. HE has humility, truthfulness, perseverance, love, kindness, everything. HE’s perfect, but there’s just one thing he can’t do, HE can’t LIE to us. We might not be as perfect as he is but at least we have the effort and we give time on following his footsteps, only him. 

He loves us unconditionally and that is what we all need to learn (I can say that it can be the only thing we should learn).. Love the things we need to do or our passion unconditionally.. And especially, when loving another person.. We will never find any perfect person in this world, we are made to have problems with anything and to fight for something we don’t want to or for something we want to, we are all not the same. These things happen for us to be stronger, be a better person than yesterday.. and be able to test our love for something.. If you won’t give up, in the end you’ll find it perfect because of the contentment you have in your heart.

We shouldn’t give up ‘cause there is no impossible! Lahat may paraan, all we need to do is to ACT! Waiting will never be enough.. Having that unconditional love naman will never stop us on finding ways for something we really love and God will always be there to guide each and everyone of us. ‘Wag tayong susuko, tulad ng di NIYA pagsuko sa ‘tin! We don’t know who teaches us the right things, but we are all certain that HE does :) ♥